current mood: hot
well today i changed rooms. since there are so many people living in this house.. we were using an empty space in the middle of the house as i bedroom. it was good except i could hear everything and didnt have alot of privacy. now that my brother has moved out to live with my dad, i can have his room. so now i have all the privacy i need and the space.
i now have a car so tomorrow i start my study on how to drive. i already know most of the rules and regular stuff you are supposed to know, but i have never driven so time to learn.
i am completely single now. except for the odd thing with a friend.. im single. i completely know now that i am fully over my ex and will never want him back. i can be his friend, we have been through alot and known each other for many many years, i will always be his friend. if only he gets that through his head now that i dont want him, he can finally move on too, with the girl who does want him as he always says. but for some reason, well i know the reason kinda, he wont move on. instead he flirts with the girl who wants him, keeps her hanging on, but if i did decide to go back with him, he would toss her away and be with me in an instant. but i dont want him to do that, i want him to move on. he has a good chance of well... being happy with her if it wasnt for the fights they have. i thought i was the reason for their fights, so i decided to leave him alone if he has a chance at happiness. he then told me i wasnt and we did promise to stay friends. and he doesnt want me to leave his life altogether.
all i want is for him to move on and be happy. ill be here if he needs help.
well im off.. gonna watch Eragon. yay ^o^
Well today i went out to lunch in the city with my dad, his gf and my lil bro and sis. My dad was in Sydney for a week so thought we could all go out once he got back. We had nandos. My first time having Nandos chicken. It was actually quite yummy :).
After lunch we went for a walk and went to a book store and my dad bought me a book. I was so excited. Have wanted it for ages.
Here it is..
Am up to the second chapter and im loving it.
We also went to a cd store and had a look around for awhile. For the rest of the afternoon we all hung out at my dads.
Well gettin late now.. gonna get back to reading my book. Yay hehe.
Sick of people fighting.
Sick of people making me feel guilty.
Sick of being used.
Sick of no one every listening.
Sick of always coming second.
Sick of feeling useless.
Sick of people whinging every day.
Im just sick of being in a household full of depression and people only caring about themselves.
It has been going on for as long as I can remember ..
And best of all .. I will never ever get away from it.
How can I ever be truly happy .. When im surrounded by people who argue, fight, scream, yell, whinge and talk behind each others backs.
Everyday I am reminded that my existence is causing someone to stress and breakdown.
I feel like im in the middle of a war. And I am fighting to stay alive and sane.
Luckily I have my ways of escaping the dreaded hours of torment.
But for only a short while.
Then im back to the exhausting and overpowering days of hell.
Ily all .. But I am just so tired.
want something like this style cut with a side fringe...
..and with colours through the fringe and through the ends.
i know i know.. oo scene hair. but to m